Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
for the last 7 years all i wanted for my birthday was her... so i went to denver to see her... the first night i stayed with my grandma and grandpa it was fun we hung out and talked.. but saturday i went to my mom's and we hug out.. went to the malls. and then went to dinner... at dinner she informed me and my best friend that we were going
to a party for a cousin... i was upset just cuz i know that whole side of the family is full of alcoholics and i knew that the man who molested me would be there...(her father..) so we got there she was already drunk, she was acting like a fucking 5 year old... trying to fight people and just being a blithering idiot... and then i heard her dad calling my name... i ignored him... my blood started boiling so me and my roomate/bestfriend went outside to smoke a cig... and when we came back in i saw my mom grinding up on some guy but in the corner her boyfriend was just standing there... watching her... i have never been so embarrased in my life... and my best friend had to see that... a little while later my mom decided to push me i the fuckig bathroom with her father cuz he was afraid i hated him and he wanted to talk to me... she fucking knew what he did and she pushed me in the bathroom with him anyways... it was like autopiolet just kicked in and i did anything i could to get out of there asap... i did and tiff went outside with me and i started balling and she just hugged me... and i apologized for my whore mom... and she didn't judge me but it still made me sad that she had to see that.... and she told me that if i wanted to go home we could drive 2 hours to get back... and i said yes... so we left denver at midight... i told my mom we had to go cuz tiffs dad needed the car.. and we got home at 2 am.. i cried the entire way... and then cried myself to sleep... thank god i have tiff... she just held me all night.... im still sad about it... i can't believe she would do that to me she ruined my birthday... and im so angry... and so hurt.... fuck...
if you read all this thanks for listening...
to a party for a cousin... i was upset just cuz i know that whole side of the family is full of alcoholics and i knew that the man who molested me would be there...(her father..) so we got there she was already drunk, she was acting like a fucking 5 year old... trying to fight people and just being a blithering idiot... and then i heard her dad calling my name... i ignored him... my blood started boiling so me and my roomate/bestfriend went outside to smoke a cig... and when we came back in i saw my mom grinding up on some guy but in the corner her boyfriend was just standing there... watching her... i have never been so embarrased in my life... and my best friend had to see that... a little while later my mom decided to push me i the fuckig bathroom with her father cuz he was afraid i hated him and he wanted to talk to me... she fucking knew what he did and she pushed me in the bathroom with him anyways... it was like autopiolet just kicked in and i did anything i could to get out of there asap... i did and tiff went outside with me and i started balling and she just hugged me... and i apologized for my whore mom... and she didn't judge me but it still made me sad that she had to see that.... and she told me that if i wanted to go home we could drive 2 hours to get back... and i said yes... so we left denver at midight... i told my mom we had to go cuz tiffs dad needed the car.. and we got home at 2 am.. i cried the entire way... and then cried myself to sleep... thank god i have tiff... she just held me all night.... im still sad about it... i can't believe she would do that to me she ruined my birthday... and im so angry... and so hurt.... fuck...
if you read all this thanks for listening...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
You have every right to be feeling what you are feeling. Your mother was wayyyyyyyyyy out of line to put you with the abuser. If and when you do confront her father, it should be on your terms. You need, I think to fell empowered to confront him. Again, your mom was wayyyyyyy out of line. I am so sorry she did that to you Goober. My heart hurts for you. Sounds like your mom is not someone at this point you will find comfort in or support. Thank God for Tiff who can support you thru this difficult time. Please keep venting here. It is important to get all this crap outside of you. You have every right to be angry at your mother. I have often called my anger "righteous anger." Happy belated birthday Goober. If she were my mother, I would, as hard as that might be for you right now, I would stay away. I have found that in my healing I needed to hang around people who would support me, not judge me, and just be there for me.
I find that my family NOW, is my friends. They have been more family to me than my family of orgin.
And yes it sucks when we have expectations of how our birthday will go and then it doesn't go the way that we want to (my entire family forgot my 21st birthday and I didn't even get and apology or 21st present until I was friggin 25!!).
Realistically at the end of the day, what's done is done, you can't change it and it does no good to dwell on it.
Take your best friend and go somewhere nice for a meal or a coffee and celebrate your birthday that way...with people that care about you and respect you.
Happy Birthday :)
Good luck honey xoxo