I want to and share my story. At the age of three n my sisters 5 and 7 we were facing the cout due to sexual abise from our faher We were made wards of the state untill the age of 18 We had monly vists with mum n dad but was surpose to be with a worker from docs i remember them always sitting a diff table to us which always made me wonder y they were there. They couldn't hear the sexual things that dad was saying to us.

Our foster homes were ok our 1st one was very phyically abusive. U was made do 20 push up 20 sitt ups n eat my meal in a half r but they al3ways use to watch us do they n if we did it wrong bad luck do it again properly.If our half hr was up bad luck I was ther untill there age of 6 After that we had several gifferent sdhort term omes and acess with mum n dad. At the age of 7 docs said mum n dad could vist us on ther own I hated tis the abuse got worse and in the end i refuse to see them but my sisters kept going At the age of 13 I was placed in a home on a farm and i thought i was great i had a foster brother to teac me to swim and horse riding.Untill i started to delovop as a woman and my faoter brother showed me about poper sex as he called it,We went swimming in the dams in summer and he use to play with me. He told me it was our secrecct i was not to tell a living sole In the winter when it was to cold to swim he take me to hios place whaich was around the corner from his mums. I lost my virinty being raped him at 14. I went to school counsellor the next day n told her because i was still bleeding . I was instanrtly moved in a youh ostel where i found out mum had 3 boys and i meet my grand parnets for the first time. My nan and pop took me out and got to know me. At sixteen i moved in with them because docs were sick of me running away to them and said i be safer for me. I sioon refrtted my decision because my pop and my dad would get me a lone and abuse me. This went on daily untill i fell pregant at 16 I was having bad night mares and saw no way out and tried to comit subide and of course i survived but i had misscarried. My mum and my nan founfd out i misscarried n i was kick out on the street. I was later found on a beach purple i had over dosed on sleeping pills Mental health provided me with a home when the had stablized me and i found a job and i was finally happy. Then one day at work i get a phone call at work my dad had a massive stroke It was ard for me i was torn into too do i see him his my dad and always will or do i stay as far away as possible from him I built up the courage and a friend and went and saw him he was fully paralized on the left side. So i thought ok he can't get me now his paralized.

After months n months of pysio he went back to live with mum and my brothers i felt bad for mum deal with 3 small chidren and dad so i moved back in to help her think his in a wheel chair he can't ddo a thing to me. (oh boy was i wrong) My granfather passed away after a month of me being bk and his funeral was hard for me my family said i had put him in his coffin cause i spoke the truth I nio longer was able to handle it i moved back out on my own but i visted mum n dad to help with my brothers I was sexuall abused verbally. I sat tourgh many a day with my dad telling me that he gett me that things were no differnt. After my 3rd atempt to kill my self i got counseeling and later found out that my brothers were all rape by dad and mum. I felt gulity anfd the if onlys vcame up. They were made wards of the stae unill 18. I cut my self off from them after that it was me facing the world,
I was about three years after that i found the guy i married life was great for the 1st 3 yr then i was phyical mentaly and verbally abused for 3 yrs of my marriage. In feb of this yr i left him I was followed ome one night n was raped by him n yes i was pregant but once again i lost it. Im still no sure if it was a blessing