my thoughts travel to the outer reaches of space...and they beckon me to join them there.

I feel the pull to to leave my safe place, but fear has me firmly dis-abled.

I am frozen in time. I wait.

waiting to see what will happen next

As the darkness covers me
I find the blackness it brings
a comfort to my soul,
like a down comforter
I feel it surrond me with
warmth comes at a price
lost in time and space
I reach for that comfort

but there is no comfort, only fear. My mind takes me to another place, another time.

A time where hopes of happiness and love have not yet vanished, like the dreams of this world have gone to dust so many years ago.

As I stare into the night sky . I wonder when will he come next. What terrible things will he do next. I gin and bear it. I pretending like nothing bothering me. What a FAKE I am ?! I'm so tried of lying . I'm so tried of crying. I tired of tying myself up in knots. I just want it to end.

so i pack my bags and run. run till i can no longer see that place, or see his face.. There is light at the end of the tunnel..

But the light is dim and far away. i hear him come to me in the night and i yell and scream and no one will hear me. in the day i beg to forget but images in my mind will forever be engraved into my soul. i am lost

here's the poem so far with everyone's part in it.

As i stare into the night sky
my thoughts travel to the outer reaches of space...and they beckon me to join them there.
I feel the pull to to leave my safe place, but fear has me firmly dis-abled.
I am frozen in time. I wait
waiting to see what will happen next
As the darkness covers me I find the blackness it brings a comfort to my soul,
like a down comforter I feel it surrond me with warmth comes at a price
lost in time and space I reach for that comfort
but there is no comfort, only fear. My mind takes me to another place, another time
A time where hopes of happiness and love have not yet vanished, like the dreams of this world have gone to dust so many years ago
As I stare into the night sky . I wonder when will he come next. What terrible things will he do next. I gin and bear it. I pretending like nothing bothering me. What a FAKE I am ?! I'm so tried of lying . I'm so tried of crying. I tired of tying myself up in knots. I just want it to end
so i pack my bags and run. run till i can no longer see that place, or see his face.. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
But the light is dim and far away. i hear him come to me in the night and i yell and scream and no one will hear me. in the day i beg to forget but images in my mind will forever be engraved into my soul. i am lost

And so I wait.
Until my dreams take me to a place where I can see in the dark, and there is nothing in the shadows that scares me.
Because I am a survivor.

I survive by holding on to the one hope that I know...except I cannot find it now..it has dissapeared...the darkness has swallowed it up. the darkness has swallowed me up.

And from the darkness comes specles of light. Distant reminders that hope is eternal.

So close yet so far.

I reach out and try to grab ahold of the light... Grab ahold of my hope... Something keeps pulling me back. It's such a struggle trying to break free to make a run for that light.