Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I am so sick and tired of trying so hard to change my lfie but always getting kicked back down. At the age of 8 I was given the choice of either recruiting other child into the ring or taking further torture, not that they werent torturing me enough already. Ever since then I have had to live with the guilt of that and more precisely the consequences of that. Because of that situation my head is continually filled with distrubing thoughts. I just wish there was a way out of everything.
deleted_user
I'm sorry you were put in that situation, but you did what you had to do to survive at the time. Don't beat yourself up about it. Be proud of the fact you did survive. I too was caught up in a ring and had similar experiences. If you want to talk then feel free to message me.
sadave46
You were a child...only 8. You did what you felt you needed to do at the time. It's easy to look back with your adult mind and judge that child you once were...and so very unfair. No matter what you think today about what you did...it's time to forgive yourself.
deleted_user
Unfortunately, there is no easy way out. You just have to work through it all, as difficult and unbearable as that is sometimes/most times. Lunarchild and sadave are right. You were a child caught up in a hellish situation where the choices were really not choices at all. I really don't feel that YOU were responsible for what they made you do. You were a child trying to cope in the hell that they created for you. And you miraculously survived. I really feel that the shame, blame and guilt that you are feeling over this is not something that belongs to you. It belongs to those that abused and tortured you. I hope that you can lay this back on them and not continue to torture yourself over it. NOT YOUR FAULT. Believe it. Know it in your heart as a fact. It's the truth.
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