Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
Something just hit me last night while I was talking to my sister..
The other day someone I went to school with gave me information on a website that someone from our graduating class set up.. Well I checked it out not excited at all, hated the thought of even looking back at my past from there.. But never could really explain to anyone why that is.. That I hate that place.. Other then it just be a small go nowhere place..
Well it hit me as I was talking to her about it...
A few months ago at my son's football game I seen someone that looked exactly like someone from my past. Someone that I don't want to ever remember.. I'm sitting in the stands with my mother, her husband, my dad, my son's grandparents, my aunts, his dad and friend.. Between us all there were about 15 of us there.. Well when I seen him I just froze... I couldn't move. I looked at him a few times and am not sure if it was him or not, but it sure looked like it. (I haven't seen him since high school). Noone noticed really that I was froze... I'm not much for jumping around at the games.. LOL... Anyway... So that freaked me out a little bit...
Then this school website thing came up and not remember the football game I look at the site.. The more I look at the photos the more anxious I get... Almost like a panic attack. Well now just thinking about that site starts to freak me out a little bit.. I'm sure it has to do with all the harassment I suffered there from my appearance (matured at an early age and well just had larger assets then most anyone at that school). Anyway.. I'm sure it's related somehow.. What are the chances that I've put more in the back of my head buried under so much stuff that it just resurfaced somehow? I mean I know I never really dealt with these things... But thought for sure it wouldn't start to bother me now over ten years later... Am I just so hate filled for that town that I feel this way, or is it unresolved issues? I've been going through a lot of things the last two years, medical emergencies and my life turned upside down a month ago.. Struggling to find a decent fit in life right now.. Could it just be all the stress?? I just don't know.
The other day someone I went to school with gave me information on a website that someone from our graduating class set up.. Well I checked it out not excited at all, hated the thought of even looking back at my past from there.. But never could really explain to anyone why that is.. That I hate that place.. Other then it just be a small go nowhere place..
Well it hit me as I was talking to her about it...
A few months ago at my son's football game I seen someone that looked exactly like someone from my past. Someone that I don't want to ever remember.. I'm sitting in the stands with my mother, her husband, my dad, my son's grandparents, my aunts, his dad and friend.. Between us all there were about 15 of us there.. Well when I seen him I just froze... I couldn't move. I looked at him a few times and am not sure if it was him or not, but it sure looked like it. (I haven't seen him since high school). Noone noticed really that I was froze... I'm not much for jumping around at the games.. LOL... Anyway... So that freaked me out a little bit...
Then this school website thing came up and not remember the football game I look at the site.. The more I look at the photos the more anxious I get... Almost like a panic attack. Well now just thinking about that site starts to freak me out a little bit.. I'm sure it has to do with all the harassment I suffered there from my appearance (matured at an early age and well just had larger assets then most anyone at that school). Anyway.. I'm sure it's related somehow.. What are the chances that I've put more in the back of my head buried under so much stuff that it just resurfaced somehow? I mean I know I never really dealt with these things... But thought for sure it wouldn't start to bother me now over ten years later... Am I just so hate filled for that town that I feel this way, or is it unresolved issues? I've been going through a lot of things the last two years, medical emergencies and my life turned upside down a month ago.. Struggling to find a decent fit in life right now.. Could it just be all the stress?? I just don't know.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
but you have to deal with whatever it is thats makes you nervous when you see that guy, or you will always feel that way.