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I hate myself

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I'm so tired of hating myself. At the same time, it feels so good. Just pure self loathing. I know this isn't good. And, I try to block it out, I stay busy, I try to focus on other people in fear of being self-absorbed. Should I try not to snuff this feeling out but try to deal with it? Should I continue to fight it every freaking second of my life? How do you stop hating yourself?
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you wont stop hating yourself until you figure out why you do.
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all your doing right now is feeding the monster by trying to subdue it.

self loathing is experiecned by many survivors. You have every right to be happy and full of self esteme. You really need to start letting yourself feel this stuff and deal with it with a proffessional.

HOpe you feel better and i am here for you.
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You can ask your inner child why she hates her self and see what she tells you.
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Hey i totally relate to hating elf loathing, so cant really give advice without being a hypercrite! sorry your feeling so bad thou, keep fighting your worth it, huge hugs
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You're right smack in the middle of therapy and at a pretty common step in dealing with your abuse. Don't stuff it cuz you'll only prolong it...trust me. And yea you're gonna freak out and feel like you're insane and probably want to rip your skin off and it will suck ass for a while...but you'll get through it with the help of your therapist....believe me you will. So no running, no stuffing, no hiding, no blocking. Just let the crap come...call the therapist when you need to talk between appointments and do what you gotta do to fight this demon....fight like a bitch. And one day it won't own you anymore and then you'll quit hating yourself and you can focus on hating something like sardines. I hate those bastards.
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im not sure...i would like to know...
Juice
Juice
Blocking it out and distracting yourself will obstruct your healing, well that's what I believe anyway. You will begin to love yourself again, and although at this point taking any kind of compliment as genuine probably makes you squirm, be open to them and believe them. Tell yourself, out loud if need be, that you are a good person. It sounds weird, but it worked for me, and I'm a right miserable, cynical old cow at times.
Good luck with it, you WILL get there!!
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