what you did was wrong and as long as you know.. Everyone deserves love and everyone makes a mistake as long as you never make that mistake again. Beating yourself up aint going to help the situation. And you can never make it up to the person that you hurt. but you can never hurt someone again that way.

You DO deserve Love and Understanding.. Talking and expressing how you feel is helpful. Try to think about how you would like to change things.
Maybe one day you will be able to talk to someone and discuss your feelings and have a better direction on how to deal with your future.

Hummm.... I'll be honest, if I could beat the shit out of my abuser right now, I would. I'd beat him within an inch of his life with a baseball bat.

Wanna know why? Because he's NEVER told me that he was sorry. He always acted like it NEVER happened. In fact, after I grew up, he moved on to other little girls. He has no remorse, no guilt.

You are different. I have compassion and sadness in my heart for you.

Before you were an abuser, you were a victim. You were just a child. You need to admit and heal that part of you ... as much as you need to heal the guilt and pain you feel for the acts you committed against your sister.

You have said your sorry. Your family has accepted your apology. You need to move forward from here.

I know your sister is having a hard time, but she's going to have to deal with things in her own way. You can't fix her ... just yourself.

Did you ever think that by moving forward you might set a positive example for your sister? You could show her that's it possible to pick up the pieces and heal.

I know you feel guilt. But what good is it doing you? You've been forgiven. You need to seek out help and find a way to move forward.

I doubt you've ever delt with the fact that you were abused ... am I right? You went straight from victim to abuser and when everything came out, in the light of day, you never delt with the fact that you, yourself, were victimized.

My suggestion, start there. Find a good support group and heal the little boy who was hurt so badly.

I wish you peace.

i agree with seeking strength.you need to get help for yourself..you were abused and you ended repeating what had happened to you you feel remorse ....most don't find help for yourself you have alot of courage to speak your truth i wish you well

what seeking has said, is what I would also be telling you... take heed seekings words of wisdom and find help for the little child inside you thats never really got the help it deserves...

you need to just idenify your reasons for saying those things we can easily say things from pain that we really dont mean we just feel bad from our past.