sweetie join the club. I had days where things where so out of control that i wanted nothing than to lay down and die. but some how the day would end and the sun shined the next day.

It is a horrible feeling you are experiencing and i wish i had the magic words to make you feel better.

YOU are not a freak you are not broken, at least that is what i believe but you are hurt. any time you want to talk i am here for you.

not a freak, just recovering the satelites. like all who try you will one day find the peace in your life you trully deserve. X

I completly understand how you feel I too have felt like a freak and crazy most of my life. I am just now healing enough to have "normal" days. Keep working on improving, and give it time.

You're not alone and you're certainly not a freak!

I just feel like the only one who gets as angry as i do at men and how women have to look good and hot for them, no matter what else we accomplish, and women like me get thrown out the window. How can I get so angry and no one else has nearly as big a problem as I do with it. I really resent men, I mean, individuals, I more or less treat well, until their typical male bs comes out and it typically does. It's like after they reach a certain age in growing up, I hate them.

Heavens yes i have felt like that many times, ocd ppl are like that and well i am an ocd person. Some how we manage to pick ourselves off dust off our pants and continue on. And hoping the next day will be better then the one we have today.

Yes to all of the above, every single day. Indeed, I am a freak as well.

NO NO NO, no one is a FREAK don't you think that of yourself or let others make you think that of yourselves too. Your Gods child and he does NOT make FREAKS...

Just remember that your speical to God and your special to me as my friend.

I think everyone feels like that, at least everyone here does. That's why we join, we feel utterly alone. We're not! Just remember that. We all feel the same things you do, even if you don't believe that right now. I feel sometimes like a phsyco bitch who hates everyone and everyone hates her, but I know that's not true. YOU'RE NOT ALONE! If you ever need to talk, I'm here. Stay strong.

I totally feel like a psycho bitch who feels it is me against the world, Jenbob. My God, someone else hit so close to where I am!!

hey dear you are def not the only one u have not seen my post i guess...i'll send it too you so u understand you are not alone

You have described my life. Sex is entirely too intimate for me - I get self conscious. I stay inside because I can't go outside. I have no control over food - my mind says eat and I eat -- my mind says that a lot. No you are not alone - and not until I came onto DS did I realize how much company I had in life - you will find that too, I"m sure.