Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I say I was abused as a child. I say this because it was something that happened to me(female) by my sibling(female) I confronted her about it the next day after the second time it happened and it didnt happen again. I'm now in my 20s and then was in the single digits. I've enver brought it up to anyone since then. I'm searching for answers and closure, I have serious trust issues in relationships, and perverted abusive hetero fantasies,I feel, because of this. I've subjected myself to a rape fantasy, and rough & hurtful sex. I like it not bc it feels good, but because its what I feel should be. I know this is wrong considering my history. I've led a promiscuous past luckily without any lasting effects besides mental. I have the best of men at my door, but cannot give any a fair chance at love which I so badly want to experience. I told one ex before without details and he then dismissed it and wanted to have unportected sex, something I am against. I don't know what to do, I feel better by expressing this, as its the first time I've done so, but would like advice on how to get over the abuse of a close family member whom I am still close with and I remember the instance, but I feel she does not or rather beleives it didn not happen in order for us to stick together as family. It happened at a time I was young and exploring myself as a child, she saw that and showed me how to let others help explore you as well, I feel like I invited something to happen and couldnt get out of it though I wanted it to stop. What hould I do?
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I have had Ttp twice this year I'm 48 my doc said the next time Ttp happens they will take my immune system. Has anyone had this done? Does it work ? What other problems do u get?
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
This is the time to tend to you. Consider therapy and working through the memory and the hold it has on you. Right now therapy is my lifeline to healing.
I'd also recommend reading on the subject. I always feel empowered reading about a subject that involves me...the knowledge that I'm not alone is very powerful to me...or even the understanding of this process helps me. I'm currently reading "The Courage to Heal" and "I never told anyone". Great reads.
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I let it happen.
Those were the worst feelings and I was tearing up but not crying, I've never told this to anyone but the anonymity of this site and openness allows me to be able to feel free to express myself. I'm not sure what to do now as I am 23 and looking to take up a potential husband on his offer of marriage, family & love. I have to trust and am unable to fully do so without sabotaging relationships and creating baggage.I also cannot achieve climax in sex bc something in my mind says I can't let go. If I enjoy it the least bit I feel bad about that. or half way through I end up crying because I'm remembering my situation and I get confused if hetero sex is okay and should be happening. It's a world of hurt & confusion.