Well I wouldn't worry about the fact you cant remember most of it. I was also abused from the age of 5-13 and didnt remember much of anything about my life prior to the age of 13. I knew I had been sexually abused but that was all. Slowly the past few years memories have started to come back, but I have had to seek to remember because I knew what happened was affecting me in a negative way. So as I started to sort through some of that stuff it has come up. It still is, I dont remember it all yet. Maybe I never will but I am starting to remember more of my childhood than I ever did before. The good, bad and ugly of it. Maybe it isnt like that for everyone I am not sure, that was just my experience though. Dont know if that helps at all.

I was SA by my brother from about 4 - 13 and verbally and emotionally abused by my mom as well. for a long time, and even now, I didn't remember many things, just certain really bad instances, but as you get older, with the help of a sibling or counselor, you may be able to remember more. it used to feel somewhat disturbing to me that I couldn't remember much, and my sister filled in some gaps. I guess naturally I was angry at remembering those horrible times, but our brains and minds are such wonderful things, they protect us, I think, until we are more mature and able to understand or make some sense of what happened to us. Your brain is just protecting you! God Bless.

I remember alot of the abuse, places, smells, unfortunately I was old enough to remember alot of it. I remember my sister and I used to spend whole summers at my grandparents house and only sometimes did she and I ever get to sleep in the same room together, makes me think gramma knew. I have a brother 4yrs younger than me and when he got old enough to start visiting without my mom there my sis and I told what was happening. But I also remember telling my dad one night when I was about 5yrs old that I wished I was dead, and when he asked me why I would say a thing like that I couldn't tell him. I just started crying so my dad locked me out of the house in the dark trying to get me to tell him. I think he thought he could scare it out of me or maybe that I just wanted attention? I dunno. I don't really remember much before the abuse started, I just remember the abuse. I think I tried to block it all out and ended up blocking my other memories too. I want to remember my life with out the abuse, I can't remember birthdays, Christmas, preschool, kindergarten, nothing, only abuse. I wish now that I could just block it all out.