The way I used to do it was to have another survivor of sexual abuse come with me and hold my hand. I spent most of my life before recovery believing that I had to do things on my own. Once I got into recovery, I realized that other people actually ask for help.

The other option is to bring some sort of stuffed animal with you that means a lot to you and hold it, focus on it, while the exam is being done.

Last option is to talk to the drs. nurse and see if she can support you emotionally through the exam by holding your hand and talking to you.

There are also some wonderful breathing/meditation techniques that work in these situations. Breathing and meditation are crucial if you are going to recover from sexual abuse. You might want to ask your support system (?) about this.

I would like to introduce you to nelly 1962.She has had pain like or close to your symptons.I hope she can help .she is a wonderful person.

the way i do is never go... as horrible as it may be i have never had a pap test done, im scared to death to actualy go in and do it. By the time your 21 in canada you have to have had one pap test, im only 19 i have 2 more years to prepare my self. But i havent dont anything with a guy other then my abuse when i was a child. But my way of getting through it is not going. Iv been asked like 4 times if i had, had a pap test by my doctor over the last 2 years, i say no, she says i have to soon. i tell her im not active and i make her drop the topic

Thank you all for your replies. I realize I am not crazy That others feel the same way. I need to learn not to feel shame when I have these exams. I feel so much shame. I wish I knew why I feel so shamed.
Well thanks. Cocoes