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There are times when I am in the dark night of the soul - faith but you can't feel it-
I think my abuse has been part of not letting me feel gods prescents for long periods of time.
My abuse has left me emotionanlly numb and not feeling connected to people so how could i feel connected to god. so I just have faith.
I personally believe very strongly in God, and I have my reasons for that. But not everyone agrees with those reasons, and that's okay.
You have the right to freedom of religion, and in spite of what some certain idiotic presidents say, that DOES include freedom FROM religion. Several of the founding fathers were, in fact, Atheists. Several more were 'agnostics' like you seem to be.
If this is what you want, it's alright.
However, if it bothers you that you don't know what to believe, I encourage you to start exploring different religions. Buddhism, for example, does not depend on a God. Many Buddhists are also atheists.
Religion and belief systems are wonderful ways to find peace.
You can explore many different religions here:
www.religioustolerance.org
Do I have trouble believing? No, because I never did.
And the thing "stands back and lets bad things happen to good people" the creater probly chose us so we could try and make a difference or they gave us a life challenge its hard to say its just a thing that happens the creater cant stop sick people right.
i used to not believe in God at all. In fact, i very clearly remember saying, "there is no God, because if there was, my life wouldn't suck like this".
I think He took that as a cue to show me I was wrong, because over the next 9 months, he totally got my attention. :) i'm so glad he did.
i know it's hard to believe when bad things happen, but the only way to avoid that is to control every one, and someone who loves you won't control you. but i can tell you this, He is right there willing to walk through anything with you, and to give you the grace and strength you need to face it if you'll ask Him to do that. He doesn't turn anyone away who is seeking after Him. In fact, the Bible says that He has given you an invitation, that He stands at your door and knocks, but won't come in until He's invited...He says that anyone who seeks him with their whole heart will find him.
your question is a good one because it's honest. now just be open for the answer that goes against common sense, the one that is in faith--isn't it possible that one who loves you is willing to not stand back and let things happen, but to jump in and care for those who are wounded by the wrong choices of others.
if you want to talk more, or have questions about anything i've said, write to me anytime. i will be praying for you that you find what you need. one good book that you will find sweet but also speaks directly to your question is "Hinds Feet on High Places". i think you'll know teh main character--she has many of your same questions--and you can find it at any major bookstore, or probably through amazon for about $3.00. it's well worth the time to read, and i hope you will. i think it will be a comfort and a source of hope for you!
with hope,
em