Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
After being manipulated and raped during my years.
I've now become obsessed with an alternative world yet afraid of it.
I don't like pain but somehow i need the dominant side before i can feel complete.
I feel like i'm messed up for being submissive but in that world it's ok and you are taken care of.
But somehow i feel dirty in the vanilla side and i hate that it was a male that did it to me.
The worst feeling in the world... Is knowing my family doesn't know and I would never fully let them in on that life of being raped and beaten and knowing that now.. I like to be tied down and a sub to some dom. it's twisted
I've now become obsessed with an alternative world yet afraid of it.
I don't like pain but somehow i need the dominant side before i can feel complete.
I feel like i'm messed up for being submissive but in that world it's ok and you are taken care of.
But somehow i feel dirty in the vanilla side and i hate that it was a male that did it to me.
The worst feeling in the world... Is knowing my family doesn't know and I would never fully let them in on that life of being raped and beaten and knowing that now.. I like to be tied down and a sub to some dom. it's twisted
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
I also feel guilty for being so submissive; it seems counter intuitive for someone that's been abused. I have to agree with you though it is twisted.
Be strong
Lots of hugs
N xx
I honestly have to say for a long time i did not understand why regular sex just did nothing for me....oh but get me in the arms of a Dominant man and my whole BODY comes alive...tho I have been raped...and more then Once..I do not believe that has anything to do with it...i mean if it did then why did I not get aroused DUREING the rape ??
Giveing ur trust...your POWER is completely different then haveing someone TAKE it...and I believe that is what D/s is about....just an opinion...but i know alot of women wheo have never been abused in any situation are the same way