Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
Possible trigger?
I had a crazy flashback the other day where I reminded myself of my abuser.
The first day any of it started, he was wearing a yellow T-shirt. And it was a hot day, so I could smell his sweat mixing with his deodorant.
It was hot the other day, and I was wearing a yellow tank top. I had to borrow my boyfriend's deodorant because mine had run out. I was walking to class, and the sun was really bright, so I looked down to shield my eyes. I caught sight of my yellow shirt and caught a whiff of my sweat/deodorant. I then realized that it's the exact same deodorant.
Everything is so fresh in my mind, even though it was almost 6 years ago.
I had a crazy flashback the other day where I reminded myself of my abuser.
The first day any of it started, he was wearing a yellow T-shirt. And it was a hot day, so I could smell his sweat mixing with his deodorant.
It was hot the other day, and I was wearing a yellow tank top. I had to borrow my boyfriend's deodorant because mine had run out. I was walking to class, and the sun was really bright, so I looked down to shield my eyes. I caught sight of my yellow shirt and caught a whiff of my sweat/deodorant. I then realized that it's the exact same deodorant.
Everything is so fresh in my mind, even though it was almost 6 years ago.
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I gave my 2 week notice last Friday 13th. Now to join you fine people in a life of leisure and nothing else to do but to look out for myself....is it just me or does that sound pretty boring? My goal was to live to retire and I guess having to take early retirement because of health reasons wasn't exactly the way I had planned things. I just can't stay in that building that is reeking mildew...
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
My flashbacks often come at the most unpredictable times. Often i can't even figure out what the trigger was. I think it's healthy that you can recognize what was going on and why it was a trigger.
I'm sorry that we all have to go through these things!
I know exactly what your talking about. There are a few other smells that still remind me and certain clothing also.
When I "came to" from the flashback, I realized that when I was little I used to sleep in my closet.
The connections that follow a flashback are enlightening, once you get past the sheer terror. I liken it to a slap in the face.