Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
Possible trigger?
I had a crazy flashback the other day where I reminded myself of my abuser.
The first day any of it started, he was wearing a yellow T-shirt. And it was a hot day, so I could smell his sweat mixing with his deodorant.
It was hot the other day, and I was wearing a yellow tank top. I had to borrow my boyfriend's deodorant because mine had run out. I was walking to class, and the sun was really bright, so I looked down to shield my eyes. I caught sight of my yellow shirt and caught a whiff of my sweat/deodorant. I then realized that it's the exact same deodorant.
Everything is so fresh in my mind, even though it was almost 6 years ago.
I had a crazy flashback the other day where I reminded myself of my abuser.
The first day any of it started, he was wearing a yellow T-shirt. And it was a hot day, so I could smell his sweat mixing with his deodorant.
It was hot the other day, and I was wearing a yellow tank top. I had to borrow my boyfriend's deodorant because mine had run out. I was walking to class, and the sun was really bright, so I looked down to shield my eyes. I caught sight of my yellow shirt and caught a whiff of my sweat/deodorant. I then realized that it's the exact same deodorant.
Everything is so fresh in my mind, even though it was almost 6 years ago.
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My flashbacks often come at the most unpredictable times. Often i can't even figure out what the trigger was. I think it's healthy that you can recognize what was going on and why it was a trigger.
I'm sorry that we all have to go through these things!
I know exactly what your talking about. There are a few other smells that still remind me and certain clothing also.
When I "came to" from the flashback, I realized that when I was little I used to sleep in my closet.
The connections that follow a flashback are enlightening, once you get past the sheer terror. I liken it to a slap in the face.