HI THIS IS MY STORY. IN 1979 I TOOK A RIDE FROM TWO YOUNG MEN. I HAD BEEN AT A PARK WITH A GIRLFRIEND WE HAD A FEW BEERS THAN IT WAS TIME TO GO HOME TO GET READY FOR OUR EVENING PLANS. SHE HAD ROAD HER BIKE AND I HAD WALKED TO THE PARK. WE WERE TO MEET UP LATER. AS I WAS WALKING HOME 2 GUYS STOPPED AND ASKED IF I WANTED A RIDE. I HAD SEEM THEM AT THE PARK PLAYING FOOTBALL WITH SOME OTHER GUYS SO I THOUGHT WHY NOT. BEFORE I KNEW IT THEY HAD A GUN POINTED AT MY HEAD. THEY TOLD ME THEY WOULD KILL ME IF I DID NOT TO WHATEVER THEY TOLD ME TO DO. I WILL LEAVE OUT THE MOST GRUESOME DETAILS. BUT I WAS RAPED, MADE TO DO UNSPEAKABLE OTHER SEX ACTS. PISTOL WHIPPED THEN THROWN OUT OF A SPEEDING CAR. A MAN DRIVING BY SAW ME TRYING TO PULL MY SELF OUT OF THE DITCH AND PERSUADED ME TO LET HIM TAKE ME HOME. BUT I KNEW I COULD NOT DO THAT BECAUSE EVERYONE WOULD KNOW. I HAD HIM DROP ME OFF AT A PIZZA PLACE NEAR MY HOME TO TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO. YOU MIGHT BE ABLE TO IMAGINE THE EMPLOYEES AT THE PIZZA PLACE DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO WHEN THIS BEATEN BLOODIED WOMEN WITH HER CLOTHES TORN AND INSIDE OUT WALKED IN THERE DOORS. THE GOOD SAMARITAN HAD STUCK AROUND AND WHEN I HAD GONE IN TO THE RESTROOM TO SEE IF I COULD FIX MYSELF UP HAD CALLED THE POLICE. I CANT REMEMBER ANYTHING AFTER THAT UNTIL I WAS IN A DETECTIVES OFFICE THROWING UP IN A WASTE BASKET. I BLACKED OUT MANY THINGS THROUGH THE HOSPITAL, TALKING TO DETECTIVES, GOING THRU MUGBOOKS, ETC.ETC. NOW SOMETHING WILL TRIGGER A MEMORY AND I AM PARALYZED WITH FEAR. I THOUGHT I HAD DEALT WITH THIS YEARS AGO. MY RAPISTS WERE NEVER CAUGHT. I SEE THEIR FACES ALL THE TIME. THEY SAY TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDSL. MY WOUNDS ARE STILL GAPING