It is not worth it. I tried revenge and got caught. Revenge to those who hurt you will come at its own time and by a higher power, and source. Their time will come on its own. Just hang in there.

I wanted revenged very badly. I expect that is because "they" seemed to have what I wanted- a "normal life". (My two older male cousins)
When I first spoke out I was afraid they would find some way to hurt me. As time unfolded I reaslied that they didn't have a normal life. Not only were they suffering the stigma of suspicion from their wives, they were suffering from the indigestible lie.
By denying the truth they can never heal themselves. I still blame them, they were old enough to know better, but I can also see the pattern of abuse in their family. I can still remember their Dad whipping them. I remember trying to protect them because I knew they would turn on me afterwards. I remember one of them following his father to a clandestine meeting with his mistress and making me copy what he saw.
They, however, believe they had a perfect childhood. That their father was a great guy, their mother ever loving, not simply the person behind whom the abuser hides.
And now they can never heal themselves, or stop it from happening again.
Now when someone from the family visits them they will no longer let their children stay at their house unchaperoned.
I did not make them the perpetrators, they did. If they would only step forward and open their mouths; they could at least move forward and heal.
But they have shut the door on this forever and now they have to carry the burden, not me.
Finally I do not have to carry the weight... this is revenge enough.

I think at some point i wanted revenge but now i dont,it isnt going to take the memories away. i just want to confront him and get some answers.

I'm with you Hiya19, I know I couldn't, because even thinking about meeting him sends me into a panic attack, but I would like answers. I would'nt want revenge because what would that solve? Would it fix me? No - It would only make things worse.

I dont know what it would do for me..... but I am willing to try. I will go to jail for bashing their faces in. I want to just beat their faces in with a baseball bat.

I dont want to type anymore about it I will get really angry. I dont like that

Eh, I don't really want to avenge myself. I always want to avenge other people. That's a little weird, I know, but I just don't care so much about vengeance for me. I don't feel like I need it. I feel justified already... As if the person who did it is already being punished in a horrible way. In fact, if it is who I think it is, they ARE. And that is my revenge, straight from the hand of God.
But when I hear about what's happened to the other men and women on this site, I want to hunt down their abusers and torture them. I want to make them feel the physical equivalent of the pain they put their victims through.

I would expect to have some closure. He caused me so much pain. All he got was pleasure. Revenge. To have everybody he knows find out what he did.So he couldn't have a normal life.Would give me some happiness. That he has to suffer to