Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I'm in college right now, and frankly, its kicking my butt. I can't seem to find a reason to keep going. Everyone but me seems to have their lives planned out. When they close their eyes and daydream, they can see a wonderful future. When I close my eyes, I don't see anything. I don't have any dreams! Is there anyone else like this?
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
Then I feel even worse because I feel like I'm letting all of my professors down.
A lot of is that we're so afraid of disappointing people that we don't want to even try.
Having direction will definitely help. I'm going to be a college professor, for example. And thinking about that makes me happy and makes me want to actually try.
But yeah, it's a grind, and you really have to just put your nose to the grindstone, grit your teeth and force yourself into it.
It seems like a grind, like putting your head down and just pushing through the bullshit until you see it, whatever it is. For me it was to give my son a normal healthy life and family.
I'm working hard and can see the changes and everyday I get a little closer to my goal.
Just hang in there and you will find your drive.
But, that is getting better.
When I was in College, ~11 years ago, I was pretty focused on my studies...but I was in what I call my 'Survivor Mode' back then. I was Type A, perfectionistic, goal-oriented, a high achiever. And that persisted up until 4 years ago, when the SA Trauma History caught up with me and PTSD set in.
Now, I am going THROUGH the Healing Journey, and my professional life has been put on hold while I am doing this.
Maybe some therapy might help...or maybe even some meds to help you through. There seems to never be a good time to heal from this...Just have to make the time and do it, so you can have a better quality of life that only through healing can give you.
Good Luck!