I think we are getting angry because at one point our power was stolen. Now that we can express our pain and anger we tend to just get angry for "no reason". Sometimes I can just look at my hubby or kids and want to go off for the slightest things. So I am trying to learn that it is ok to be angry and I don't have to lash out to let them know I am displeased about something. It is hard though. Are you on any meds? I am on Prozac. I really can't tell any difference but after a couple of weeks off of it my hubby will come and say... honey did u stop ur meds again? Of course that makes me mad and I usually say something like, "are you sure you just arent being a butt and I have every reason to be pissed?" Then I have to go and apologize because I really had stopped my meds..lol... I don't stop them anymore. I have learned that lesson the hard way at the expense of my family.

Thank You so much for your post. This is exactly how I feel everyday of my life!I lash out at stupid things. For the longest time I thought I was just a freak but joining this website has made me realize for the first time in my life that I can actually say I am "normal". I have been like this for 30 years. I seem to be getting worse the older I get. I guess its because I have never dealt with the abuse. I kept it a secret for so long ( not wanting to hurt my family) I am finally getting professional help. So I have hope now that I will heal from the hell of my childhood. So know that you are never alone.

I have been feeling like that off & on alot more lately. Somedays i am my regular happy self & other days someone could say "hi" to me & i come back with some nasty remark or snap at them. I've been told to react to the anger & not hold it in, but i am afraid to let it out for fear that i will say something to someone i'll regret later or damage something too much! But i do have the same problem with anger! And Ninavee - i absolutely HATE when someone asks me if i've stopped my meds (take effexor). I could be in a good mood & someone will say that & it TOTALLY sets me off. It's like - so my only reason for feeling a certain way is meds? what's your excuse - you're just a @&*$@%^*&%$? lol.

i know how you're feeling. i can be happy one moment...and the next, i'm just...yeah...

i, too, tend to hold it in because i fear saying something i really wouldn't mean to say. i blew up on my fiance's sister once...

and sometimes, i feel like blowing up on his mom. =/

I think for me I've buried the pain so deep I can't feel the anger any more. I am numb. which isn't healthy.

I have been angry for so long and I did not know why.Only recently did I start "remembering" the abuse. I feel so angry & disgusted...why would someone do that to a child? Sometimes i'll be in a really good mood and then just have a breakdown! Now I feel less angry and more numb. And sometimes am in so much pain that I just want everything to stop. I just want the pain to go away...

I definately get those feelings for no apparent reason. I can be perfectly fine and then the next moment I'm yelling and screaming and feeling like total shit. I can't calm down and I can't quit hating and being mean. My boyfriend is the one that usually gets the brunt of this, and I feel horrible at what I'm doing to him and to our relationship. I wish I could stop, but I don't know how. I used to be on prozac, that is before I got pregnant, and I would be on and off of them all the time. Just like ninavee, everyone else noticed when I've taken them or not, but it sure wasn't me. I couldn't tell you the honest difference if my life depended on it and I've heard from others that that's just part of it. I don't know if I've been much help, but if you ever need to talk, I know what you're going through. Stay strong.

I definately have discovered triggers that are causeing similar feelings. I know for me it is years of pent up hurt. I sometimes feel like a kid acting out.