Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
This was not easy 4 me 2 write this
Yesterday which was wednesday I went 4 a walk and I went 2 the nearest toilet which is in the indoor market when I went in there I was on my own then few seconds later an old man came in and he came next 2 me and b4 I noticed or could do anything about it he grabbed my private part I screamed in shock and told him 2 fuck off I started shaking and I was still peeing he left then I went 2 wash my hands then I went out and he was by one of the market stalls so I just passed him and I looked back 2 c if he was following me and he was I started panicking and shaking really badly I felt really scared and I had 2 make a quick decision whether 2 try and lose him or run or tell som1 that a man was following me 1st of all I went round in circles at the time I wasnt thinking str8 cause was just really frightened and scared I went round in circles 2 make sure I wasnt being paranoid after about a good 3 minutes he was still following me so I knew I wasnt being paranoid so I picked my pace up and went through a side door which leads 2 the back of a car park and then I just ran fast as I could then when I knew I was out of sight from the town I walked I was so frightened and scared and feel sick that he grabbed my private part then followed me : ( since this happened ive been really upset and messed up about what happened when I got home I wrote what happened in my journal 4 only my friends 2 read theyve been really supportive and I was advised 2 join this community so that y decided 2 write what happened in this post wasnt sure whether 2 write about what happened but decided 2 cause cant handle what happened : (
I feel so ashamed by what happened and a part of me is now lost and I blame myself for what happened and I hate myself : (.
im hating myself more and more each day and feel like hurting myself i woke up 2day and banged my head against the wall i know i deserve more hurt than just banging my head
Yesterday which was wednesday I went 4 a walk and I went 2 the nearest toilet which is in the indoor market when I went in there I was on my own then few seconds later an old man came in and he came next 2 me and b4 I noticed or could do anything about it he grabbed my private part I screamed in shock and told him 2 fuck off I started shaking and I was still peeing he left then I went 2 wash my hands then I went out and he was by one of the market stalls so I just passed him and I looked back 2 c if he was following me and he was I started panicking and shaking really badly I felt really scared and I had 2 make a quick decision whether 2 try and lose him or run or tell som1 that a man was following me 1st of all I went round in circles at the time I wasnt thinking str8 cause was just really frightened and scared I went round in circles 2 make sure I wasnt being paranoid after about a good 3 minutes he was still following me so I knew I wasnt being paranoid so I picked my pace up and went through a side door which leads 2 the back of a car park and then I just ran fast as I could then when I knew I was out of sight from the town I walked I was so frightened and scared and feel sick that he grabbed my private part then followed me : ( since this happened ive been really upset and messed up about what happened when I got home I wrote what happened in my journal 4 only my friends 2 read theyve been really supportive and I was advised 2 join this community so that y decided 2 write what happened in this post wasnt sure whether 2 write about what happened but decided 2 cause cant handle what happened : (
I feel so ashamed by what happened and a part of me is now lost and I blame myself for what happened and I hate myself : (.
im hating myself more and more each day and feel like hurting myself i woke up 2day and banged my head against the wall i know i deserve more hurt than just banging my head
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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Has anyone tried these supplements? Do they give MGers more quality of life by improving memory and overall well being?Thanks!Barbel
You are not to blame!!
You are better than he can ever be.
You had the strength to tell someone about it.
We are here to listen.
Never blame yourself, never hate yourself. What he did was horrible, and whether or not you report this he's the loser.You've been hurt enough, you don't deserve to be hurt any more, you deserve peace and healing.
I wish I could kill the guy who did that to you, it breaks my heart. Therapy is really good, just make sure you feel totally safe about the person. I'm so proud of you for what you've done already.
reporting him would be a good thing in general, but I would want someone to be with you, like an advocate, cause police can be such bitches. It sounds like you need some professional help though for the ptsd. Your reactions are totally normal considering what happened, but they can be super scary and dangerous.