Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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deleted_user
deleted_user
This was not easy 4 me 2 write this

Yesterday which was wednesday I went 4 a walk and I went 2 the nearest toilet which is in the indoor market when I went in there I was on my own then few seconds later an old man came in and he came next 2 me and b4 I noticed or could do anything about it he grabbed my private part I screamed in shock and told him 2 fuck off I started shaking and I was still peeing he left then I went 2 wash my hands then I went out and he was by one of the market stalls so I just passed him and I looked back 2 c if he was following me and he was I started panicking and shaking really badly I felt really scared and I had 2 make a quick decision whether 2 try and lose him or run or tell som1 that a man was following me 1st of all I went round in circles at the time I wasnt thinking str8 cause was just really frightened and scared I went round in circles 2 make sure I wasnt being paranoid after about a good 3 minutes he was still following me so I knew I wasnt being paranoid so I picked my pace up and went through a side door which leads 2 the back of a car park and then I just ran fast as I could then when I knew I was out of sight from the town I walked I was so frightened and scared and feel sick that he grabbed my private part then followed me : ( since this happened ive been really upset and messed up about what happened when I got home I wrote what happened in my journal 4 only my friends 2 read theyve been really supportive and I was advised 2 join this community so that y decided 2 write what happened in this post wasnt sure whether 2 write about what happened but decided 2 cause cant handle what happened : (
I feel so ashamed by what happened and a part of me is now lost and I blame myself for what happened and I hate myself : (.

im hating myself more and more each day and feel like hurting myself i woke up 2day and banged my head against the wall i know i deserve more hurt than just banging my head
redsilverfox
redsilverfox
Aw that took courage hugs!!!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hey man18 your so brave, dont give the b*****d the satisfaction, big hugs
deleted_user
deleted_user
dang that sounds too bad maybe if you just nutted him when he tryed going for your privet parts. I mean thats what I would have done
deleted_user
deleted_user
glad u had the courage to put this on here...I am here for u dude.....big hugs....love u
deleted_user
deleted_user
life is hard
deleted_user
deleted_user
im just so hurt my hearts hurting and beating really fast and i now have tears in my eyes and finding it hard 2 breathe and my hands are getting really sweaty i think its best i get my feelings out b4 i go 2 sleep cause right now i feel like giving up i hate feeling like this
deleted_user
deleted_user
You did what you thought best at the time, he may have had a weapon had you tried to attack him. You shouldn't hate yourself, just the SOB that violated you. All the agression you feel towards yourself needs to be focused on the old man. maybe you can make a big picture of his face and throw things at it!
deleted_user
deleted_user
i agree, he's the one to be angry with. And you did do the right thing by not attacking him, you never know. Have you thought about reporting it? Pls don't hurt yourself. hurt him by reporting this to someone. You don't deserve this and you did nothing to provoke it, it is not your fault. I'm so sorry this creep did this to you, it's not right. *hugz* pls keep posting okay?
Juice
Juice
Are you seeing anyone for therapy about other stuff, becasue it might help to tell them how panicked you've been feeling. Whenever you start to feel panicked or guilty, remember these things:
You are not to blame!!
You are better than he can ever be.
You had the strength to tell someone about it.
We are here to listen.

Never blame yourself, never hate yourself. What he did was horrible, and whether or not you report this he's the loser.You've been hurt enough, you don't deserve to be hurt any more, you deserve peace and healing.
deleted_user
deleted_user
thank u 4 supporting me just finding it so hard and difficut 2 cope with
deleted_user
deleted_user
You need to realize that it isn't your fault that it happened. Don't hate yourself, hate him!
deleted_user
deleted_user
its just hard cant stop blaming myself
deleted_user
deleted_user
I think blaming yourself is a way to try to take control of something that was totally out of your control and awful and scary. It's hard to give that up, but it will only hurt you more.
I wish I could kill the guy who did that to you, it breaks my heart. Therapy is really good, just make sure you feel totally safe about the person. I'm so proud of you for what you've done already.
reporting him would be a good thing in general, but I would want someone to be with you, like an advocate, cause police can be such bitches. It sounds like you need some professional help though for the ptsd. Your reactions are totally normal considering what happened, but they can be super scary and dangerous.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Its so sad reathe it be sexual abuse, physical abuse or emotional abuse the first thing we think is, I must have done someting to pervoke it or I did not do someting to stop it. Usually I has no controle over the asituation. Im glad you are safe and knothing worse hapened to you. but learning to turst your insticks (CANT SPELL) or not feel afraid does need some help to coop. I hope you get the saport you need to do this.
redsilverfox
redsilverfox
HUGS HUGS HUGS ASK YOUR DOC TO REASSESS YOUR MEDS AND GET YOU A COUNSELLOR OR SOCIAL WORKER TO TALK TO!!!!!
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