Hello. I am new to this discussion group. I am writing b/c I am a little worried about my relationship with my husband. My concern is brought about now since we are getting a new computer in a few weeks. We were without one for a year, and to be honest I would be without one forever. A couple years ago after we had our first child, my husband was wrapped up in porn.It was the worst times. I cried all the time, and the time I could have spent loving my son, I wasted on being hurt. My husband would be on whenevr he had a chance. He made up stories. I learned to check his history, and he learned to erase it. Every night he would be in there. I hated walking into that room, b/c of the memories it brought. Our carpet was ruined by him, in that room.( That may be a little too descriptive, but I have to be honest.) Soon I got a filter, but he fouund his way around that also. I was always physically sick, b/c I new he would be on that while my innicent son was in the other room. I told him that we are getting rid of th internet, and he agreed. We also begin seeing a Christian counselor. During this time, he went on a business trip with his laptop. When he returned, I checked out his comp., and was devastated what I found. Files of 13-14 year olds having sex. My heart collapsed. He was in denial, but admitted to it and wanted to kill himself. Now he is supposed to be Christian, yet he never acts like it. He told me he only viewed this type of material a few times. Once is enough. I want to work it out. He says he knows how wrong it is. I just feel like we truly never resolved the issue. I got pregnant a few months after. We have a beautiful boy and baby girl. He is upset with me that I have to worry about protecting my kids. He understands everything else but that. Our marriage has gotten better, b/c we have become more involved with church and such. But I am extremely worried about his problem putting him in jail someday. Do you think it is possible to view my husband as a normal person, and not some psycho person? I want to be able to erase images, but it's hard. And what it has done to me, is amazing. He is very overweight and I am not. Now I use that as a weapon. Please give me some advice, especially those that have dealt with this problem specifically.