This is certainly a positive start...recognizing you have a problem and expressing a desire to get help. BTW...your last question? Does that mean you're not sure? I'll answer it...YES! You're extremely unlikely to beat this alone. You've already found this place (DS) but it takes much more than this...personally, I found SAA (Sex Addicts Anonymous) to be invaluable. I would not have stopped without it. There are many other similar organizations SA, SCA, SLAA, Unless you live in an extremely remote area...it's likely you'll find one near you. If you're truly serious...go. Commit to attending at least five meetings. I think you'll find, like I did, that your personal situation isn't as "different" as you might think. Try and get your hands on the Green Book. It's the SAA version of the AA Blue Book. I've found it to be very useful. The first step is recognizing you've got a problem...you seem to have reached that level. Personally, I knew I had a problem 20 years ago. I "knew" but knowing and really "doing" something about it were two different things. I lost 20 years "knowing". I hope you don't take the more difficult road like I did. You're in pain right now...act! Get to a SAA meeting tomorrow. Don't put it off....for me, it's more powerful than "therapy". You can BS a therapist, you can't BS other addicts. Good luck to you BML. You can do it if you choose! But there's no half measures...you have to make recovery the TOP priority. No BS. So as Nike says.."Just Do It!"

I agree. Find a meeting and get a sponsor. Start to work. It isn't easy, but, boy is it great on the other side of this obsession. Imagine going for days and never thinking about it. Also, get a hobby you have some real interest in. Volunteer for a non-profit in your area. Start to replace the obsession with other things that aren't all about you and you getting a fix. But, get to a meeting and meet some other people like you. There are lots of us out there.

I agree with what sadave has said...get into recovery NOW!You need an accountability group to help you discover that you really do have control over this, you just need to learn how to keep it in check.