there right now....
staying with my mum for the holidays is rough... i'm seriously stressing and stuff is heavy here. it's been a month since i've seen her and she's doing badly, the animals have been neglected, and it's finals.
went to a dinner party with some not so close friends.... =/ i just kept thinking what each of them would be like in bed. I can't mess up....i just can't right now. one more night here and i'm good. going out in a few.... heh....i'm just gonna dress like a slob.... =/

hang in there huh? it's not worth it!

Question maybe you need too. I want bit crazy when I broke up and then settled. Just be careful in every way. Theres only one life this is not a rehearsal!!!

I'm not sure there is any "should" here...there are a bazillion things you could be doing other than partying and wild sex. SA is about compulsive behavior,,,, compulsive behavior that SA use like an alcoholic uses alcohol..to push feeling down..to avoid looking at what's really going on inside...to avoid the reality of their life. There's certainly nothing wrong with having fun, it's only when we feel "driven"...where we're not doing it some much because we "want" as we feel compelled to. Given your two posts, I can't help but get the sense that you are beginning to get concerned that your sexuality and behavior is more than just a healthy sex drive.

"What do you do with yourself...going stir crazy"? Maybe just staying with that "feeling" and stop trying to run from it might bring you some answers? Just a thought...
You're going through a rough patch but rough patches are opportunities for growth...in fact, almost always, personal growth comes out of pain. It seems that most people are just not motivated to change unless their in pain...
Sometimes "stir crazy" does mean you need to change the pattern and do something fun but sometimes it also means we need to stop and look at where that feeling is coming from and listen to what it's meaning is. Your saying ...."but it's not necessarily what I should be doing" suggests you know this already. Follow your heart...do what's best ...for you.

Try to make sure you are occupied and with others at the times you would normally be going out. How are you managing with all the kids?
Would it help to think of the dangers you put yourself in? What would happen to your kids if you got seriously ill or were raped or killed by someone you just met in a bar and went home with?

I don't ever meet random people. I have a few "friends" I could call, so not in any danger per se, but I understand where you were going with that Thriver.

I was like that after my last gf left me (for about 4 months). Then I met my wife, and my life has been forever changed. But yah, for awhile, all I wanted to do was go out and drink and get laid. At the time I thought I was having a great time, but then when I met my now wife, and settled down, and realized what "real life" was about, I was like, "wow, I was outta control". Just be careful. It's not "wrong" to be feeling this way at all, just not terribly smart/safe. But you're not the only one, that's for sure!