Growing up I was taught that everything was about sex. All men wanted was sex weather they said it or not.If you didnt provide them with it you would be pushed aside like you were nothing.(my mother kinda burned this into my skull weather it was intenstional or not) So now in all my relationships I feel like my soul purpose of being there is to basically be a sex toy for there amusment and pleasure. The sick thing was that I enjoyed that for some time until I met someone that actually treated me like a human being not a piece of meat. This relationship started out like all the others where I thought that sex was going to be the main focus. We obviously had sex a few times. Since I'm here I'll admitt it I'm addicted to sex. My boyfriend decided that he didnt want us to have sex anymore because he felt that it would proper for us not to. At first I was going out of my mind trying to make advances that were shot down. I took everything as a sexual advance which it wasnt. Finally I stopped bothering. The only thing keeping me from going out and giving into my addiction is my loyalty. If he refuses to sleep with me then that means that I cant get my "fix" because that would be cheating. Which is actually a good thing because its keeping my addiction in check. now instead of sex its other things but atleast I got sex out of the way. I'm working on everything else. But not having sex made me feel like I was worthless like he no longer had interest in me like I was going to be thrown away. I think he may seceratly know that sex is a problem for me. Can anyone relate?
Has sex become such an issue that it messes with your relationships and your emotions?
I just want to see if I'm alone or not here.

Thanks,

Mirage