February 02, 2009
You . . . are intimately acquainted with all my ways.
Psalm 139:3 (NAS)
I stepped on the treadmill at the Y and attached my cell phone. Because I have relatives with drug and alcohol addictions, I believed it was my job to remain on the alert. That meant staying near the phone.
After working out, I glanced at the sauna. Iâ??d never entered the steamy room, but that day I decided to put my phone inside a locker and go for it.
â??How long do you stay in this thing?â?? I asked the woman sitting there.
She stretched her legs out on the wooden bench. â??Twenty minutes. I love it.â??
I peeked anxiously through the door at the lockers. â??You okay?â?? she said. â??You look worried.â??
â??Our family has a lot of . . . problems. I should be near my phone.â??
â??What could you do if you heard bad news?â?? she asked.
When I didnâ??t answer, she continued. â??Weâ??ve had problems too. Ten years ago, my babies and I lived in our car while my husband was in rehab.â??
â??Really?â?? My skin tingled despite the heat.
â??God never left me. One night, a restaurant manager realized we were hungry. He fed us.â??
â??Is your husband sober now?â??
â??How did you fix him?â??
â??I didnâ??t. Pain is a mighty fine teacher.â?? She paused a moment. â??Girlfriend,â?? she said, â??let go. Give it to God, unless you think you can do a better job.â??
God, forgive me for trying to be You. For today, I release myself and my family to Your care. And thank You for sending an angel of a woman to meet me in that sauna.