Does anyone else have words that they just don't like to hear? For example the word CUT...I hate it and I don't like to hear it!!! So today at work I was using a razorblade to scrape tape off a counter and I left it somewhere and when I came back later a lady I work with told me there was a present sitting there for me and when I saw it I just had one of those moments where I couldn't think of anything else. Then she made some comment about slitting wrists which I chose to ignore because I am SOOO sick of people thinking thats a funny comment. Then later I'm watching American Idol and Ryan made some comment about making cuts. I cannot hear that word and not think about cutting myself. I just feel like I keep getting these things like the world is telling me to cut today. I don't want to!!! I don't want this to be a part of my life anymore!
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