Last night I had a breakdown and although it has only been around a week since I have cut...I was very much going to last night. I didn't because I tried to wait out the feeling and tried to write on my journal to help. This morning, I am feeling better in a way but I can feel that I have that urge still in me. I am emotionally unstable, I do not know how else to describe it. I will be ok then I will all of a sudden feel like I want to cut and get in the mindset that I need the pain. I am just so tired of it lately that I do not know how much fight I have left in me to not do this.
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