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What is wrong with me??

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I know I have some issues to deal with. But there are times when I feel pleasent. I'm engaged to the nicest man I've ever met. He tells me and shows me some much love and appreciation. He makes me feel safe and happy. But I want to die. I don't want to be here anymore. Those pleasent times are not enough, they are to few to far apart.I can't take the pain anymore. Even though he's here with me I feel so alone. I almost did it one day, I took a whole bottom of tylenol with codene and all of meteformin(diabetic meds). The doctor said I was so close to dying "but good thing your body is strong, it fought for you" he said. That was the worst day. I even got hit by a car on purpose but all I got was to broken legs and a clasped lung. I tried so hard but I can't do it. Why can't my mind be as strong as my body? Alot of people tell me that if I really wantedto kill myself I would have done it already. But that's not true! I want to die with all of my heart I want to die. What is wrong with me?
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to be honest i just think you are depressed and are feeling the same way that at least 70% of this community are feeling. Sorry but i dont think i can say more that that. :)
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i know what thats like.. im with the man that i love more than anyone in the world... but ima still lonely... i still think about if life would be better for everyone else if i were dead... and i still want to cutt myself... it doent make any sense... happiness lasts a moment but death is forever... just keep trying to hang on to those moments of happines
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I totally know how your feeling because I'm there right with you. I have a great hubby and four beautiful kids.....life should be good for me....but most of the time I'm very lonely.....also usually thinking of ending it all...but I can't because my kids would miss me plus since the first time being hospitalized they told me if I were to end it......one of my kids would do it to. Oh, my God! More guilt.....so I'm here living in hell....and fighting each day to stay alive. You don't really want to die......we just want the pain to go away.....to have a life without living in this deep dark hole with so much pain.....hugs
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I forgot to say.....if I was here all alone...no family.....I would be gone in a second.....thinking of you
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your not alone recently i find my self constantly depressed i have even smiled at thoughts of suicide, but hang in there, good luck.

and if i dident have family and friends that would miss me ide likley of killed my self by now.
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From what I am reading, your attempts were more than serious. Sounds like someone still has plans for you here. Have you considered talking with your doctor or a profession about feeling down & sad when you shouldn't be.
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