The other day as I looked at myself in the mirror I tried to imagine my life without the hideous scars on my stomach and my arms. There are days where I live in regret and say how stupid of me, what are people going to think? Do they look at me and say to themselves, " what could have been so bad for her to do something like that to herself?"
People have different ways of dealing with their anger, this is my way. I constantly hear people say you have to find a better way of handling your stress and blah, blah, blah. I just have to say this. I don't care. I have stopped trying to cover up my arms. If people like me than it will be for who I am and they would know that the last thing i need to hear is find a better solution. Unless your a cutter you may never know. I believe that I have to want it inorder to stop, but right now I'm not sure I'm ready.