I am here... how can I help you tonight?

you can post:)

If talking helps, you can talk to me anytime :) You can get through this, just hang on until it gets better. It WILL get better!

Chyna...post all you like - we're here to help each other with care and consideration ;0)

Two nights ago i was IM'ing someone. This person triggered me like i have never been triggered before. i can read anything that is written and usually not get triggered. i walk a thin line daily. i battle with myself daily. It takes all i have not to cut and cut badly if you know what i mean. Uh i am not sure this writing is gonna help. So yesterday another person spoke in a way like a challenge. This person created a worse battle, i am not sure it's ok to go into what i mean by this. All i can say now, is the line, the edge is thinning. i can meet this challenge yet i fight for one reason. My belief in God. It is the only reason i can fight for. This person even challenged that saying How do i know that its wrong? How do i know that God would be angry, maybe he would understand? To go ahead!! He knows if i wanted to i would, so what is holding me here? Oh, i hear him, i now want to meet this challenge. Maybe this person is right and God would not mind...oh a thin line. i am fighting so hard. Now i can't see why i fight anyway...a very thin line.

noone

go with your heart, don't listen to the other person if it isn't what you believe *hugs* please stay safe

you know you deserve to be free of cutting *hugs*

please post when these urges come... we will help

13blue,

Thank you and i think thats why i am posting. i am doing all i can not to. i did though and i am having a hard time wanting to stop. i am really having a hard time right now.

I'm sorry you are having a hard time. We have all been there, you can do it!

I know.. I went 6 days... today would have been a week for me. I slipped. Tomorrow will be day 1.. and I will count from scratch.

I find free writing helps me a lot... just type everything that comes to my mind... doesn't have to make sense of anything. I just go & go & go in my journal. I come here and talk... people have been very supportive & non-judgemental. I am finding this very helpful. If you see me around, message me. We can chat. I'd love to see you cut free.

i never can last that long. i tried very hard and lasted this time less than a week. Then i was triggered. i actually had to leave work today. i have not done this as i have not had a vaction in sixteen years from my work. But today still being triggered i slipped. It was not little. i do not have a way to speak with anyone nor know where to turn. i know my potential i frighten myself sometimes. i do thank you 13blue and everyone else. i do thank you for the offer of the chat. i think i would like that very much. i also hope that i will be there for you if and when you need me. That goes for the rest of y'all. i hope that this is a place in which i may come and be accepted. i too blue wish all of us to be free of our punishments.

noone