I have been trying to stop cutting since the last time I did I had to be stitched up. The thing is I use cutting to help me not have to deal with my past abuse and now that I am not cutting and getting the physical release I am actually having to experience my emotions and I am not sure what to do with them. I am getting more and more flashbacks now that I am trying not to cut. I feel like I am going to go crazy if I don't release in some way and all I want to do right now is CUT. I just want to be free of pain and hurt and memories!! I feel like I was released into battle and someone forgot to hand me my armor.
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