tonight, i think i got myself into a lot of trouble. i used a tournaquet for the first time, and really liked the results. i had gone about a month or so without cutting, and now, i fear i'm going to do it daily...made around 40 new cuts. the tournaquet was a bad idea, but i liked it a little too much. the bleeding was so much worse, and from only shallow cuts. yeah...i think i'm in trouble! my counselor is going to freak out over this, which is bad because she always wants to hospitalize me if my cutting becomes too frequent. unfortunately, she doesn't understand that i'm not going to kill myself just because i self injure. i wish she did understand, though.
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