HELLO, TO START OF I JUST JOINED HERE. I HAVEN'T GOTTEN TO AN EXTREME IN SI, BUT IF I KEEP GOING I WILL END UP HURTING THE PEOPLE I LOVE. JUST THE OTHER NIGHT I WAS WITH MY BOYFRIEND AT HIS SISTERS(SHE WASN'T THERE) HOUSE, WE HAD A COUPLE DRINKS AND WATCHED A MOVIE. ONE THING WE ARE TRYING TO WORK ON IS MY MOODS AND ANGER AND HIS DRINKING HABITS. HE HAD A BIT MUCH TO DRINK AND I FELT RESPONSIBLE FOR THAT, HE WAS THROWING UP AND I JUST COULDN'T TAKE IT. I HATE WHEN HE DRINKS TOO MUCH BECAUSE I TELL HIM TO STOP AND HE DOESN'T LISTEN. HE TELLS ME TO STOP ACTING CRAZY AND I GET MAD. SO THAT NIGHT, WHILE HE WAS THROWING UP, I WENT INTO THE KITCHEN AND GRABBED A KNIFE. I CALLED HIM OUT AND HE SAID HE COULDN'T SEE ME. I WENT OVER THERE AND I CUT INTO MY STOMACH(NOT BIG) JUST A SCRATCH. HE CAME OVER ME AND TOOK IT AWAY. I THEN GOT A NOTHER ONE, WHILE HE RAN INTO THE BATHROOM, I RAN OVER THERE HIT THE DOOR OPEN AND AS HE TRIED TAKING IT AWAY HE ACCIDENTALY CUT IN HIS HAND. AS SOON AS I SAW HIM BLEEDING I FELT ASHAMED AND LOST CONTROL. I KEPT CRYING AND HITTING MYSELF ON THE WALL. REMEMBER, THIS WAS AT HIS SISTERS HOUSE. THE NEXT DAY HE WENT TO THE HOUSE AND HIS SISTER HAD GOTTEN THERE ALREADY. SHE WAS MAD, AND ASKED HIM WHAT HAD HAPPENED,...........MY BOYFRIEND TOLD HER, HE FREAKIN TOLD HER WHAT I DO, AND WHAT HAD HAPPENED. SHE SAID I NEEDED HELP, NOW.........I JUST DON'T WANT TO SEE HER. SHE THINKS I AM CRAZY, I KNOW SHE IS THINKING BAD ABOUT ME. MY BOYFRIEND IS FIXING THE DOOR TODAY. HE THINKS WE MIGHT NOT BE INVITED TO GO TO HER HOUSE ANYMORE =(
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