I cant stand it anymore. The only thing that has been rolling through my mind all day was that I want to go home and kill myself. Why? Because Im so incrediblly stupid I cant comprehend the simplest subjects in my school. For once I want to get that "ah ha!" feeling everyone else gets when something theyre learning clicks. My triumphant call is more like a "finally! Why the fuck do you take so long? Cant you just function? Youre a stupid worthless moron." Im not trying to bitch Im just over stressed and i feel like Im going to break. I dont want to put this all on my gf. Shes amazing and I could talk to her about this but I hate worrying her. I hate it when a majority of a conversation revolves around my problems. gah. Idk. I just want to end it all so I dont have to worry about failing. I guess this cycle will never end.
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