After my first wk at my job my bosses called me in chat. They had good things to say, thought I was catching on quickly, etc. I asked about the girl that was there before and why she left. Basically she was a drug addict and eventually went to jail. So my boss says that although it was a loss to them, they think they found someone for their team in me.
So what gets me is that they mention that b/c they're a team- they don't keep secrets from each other, they help each other out, yada yada yada.
So here's the point- the only thing I'm thinking is, O crap they'll never know they got another "addict". Except I'll never go to jail for it b/c what we do isn't illegal, although it's just as harmful. Here's just another person I'll be lying to. I mean my life is run by lies anyway- so what's a few more people right? ps... I haven't cut since I found out I had the job... so about 3 1/2 weeks. I never know the exact amount like some, I tend to forget once the scratch is gone. But every scar I have, I know exactly how and why I did it... strange.
I don't expect any reply, it just stunned me a little bit when they said it, I actually had to hold back a smile, b/c I wanted to laugh...an evil laugh, yes, but a laugh just the same.