I am 21 years ( born 2/14/1986) old i was born a male thou i dont feel liek a male i kind feel some what in the middle of a female and male i am ok with the body i was born in but i am not happy with it same time i am ok with it, i moved out form moms and lived in FL ( Florida ) with one of my HS friends for about 7 mouths this year but tryed to hang my sefl but my belt broke this when i meet Hope and Lowri they have helped me a lot dealing with this and my depression. I lost my job, had very lil food and was going to be homeless. I moved back in with my mom not to long ago. Things with my mom has goten a lil better snice i have moved back where she is starting to trart me some what like an adult where before she treted me liek a 15 year old even thou i was older and became more meuter. I have dyslexia and very bad Eczema. Growing up for me was not the best, i have been made fun and beat up snice i was a kid and thou out my life even in HS and some UNi i have been made fun of. Thou out Mid and HS most ppl thout i was gay thou i have come to think they saw and felt something in me that i wasnt so happy bing a male so they made fun of me it is not i was very girly or anything they just felt and saw something diffternt and not a manly guy so they poked fun at me. When i was 18 i was up and runing to be a UMC pastor but snice droped out and have more or less lost my way with God. I feel a bit confused about who i am gender and other ways as well. I have lied to myself and others for a very long time and have lost friends due to lieing, so i have lost all snice who i am. Only up till Set. have i stop lieing and try to tell everyone the truth. So its been had for me to see myself and face the real me and face the truth and not tell a lie to fit in or for ppl to like me cuse of all hate and dislike i been shown as a kid and grwoing up i lie and show ppl what i think they like so i can fit in and ppl like me thou they liek the fake me and not the real me. So, i been trying my best to show the real me and find the real me its been hard not to go back and lie and hide myesefl, when i look atmyelf i see someone who is a shell of a person and lost and conused and hurting and does not like themeslf and who as a kid thought about thire life truning out one way but ended up not to be and is upset at that and themself for not makeing it that way. I am the younest of 3 kids. My Bro has a wife and a kid on the way he had lived with mt dad snice he was 10 years old. my sis is in Cal whos hubby is in the marines who will be shiped out soon she has been off and on a run away snice she was in her teens. My father and mom been divoed snice i was a baby, he has passed away about 5 years ago.
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