Well I've only cut like twice in the past month and both times weren't really bad but I'm still upset with myself. My boyfriend is mobilized and training to go to Afghanistan in 2 months and will be gone and miss our baby being born. I realize I have to stop cutting and cutting will not make him stay here or make the deployment any shorter, but when it comes down to it, it's the onyl coping mechanism I have left. So it's been really hard, and is only going to get worse. I just needed to voice that somewhere to someone.
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