I used to cut, but thn I came close to getting caught by my mother so I started doing it in designs to look like I was just messing around. I ran away when I was 16 and when I was brought back I tried to talk to my father about it, but he just rolled his eyes at me and told me I was stupid. And e doesnt care what I do with myself. I thought I did it out of my misery, but then I found this guy I fell in love with and he got me away from everything. He told me I had to stop or he would leave me. But I couldn't. I dont know why, I just couldnt. Eventually after talking to him about it I did. in 2003. But it took a long time. And I had a relasp in 2004, and haven't since, but I cannot shake the urg to do it again. Especially when I get really down or angry. Does it ever go away? What causes this urge?
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