may 2009 i stopped cutting myself. february of this year i cut three times, then said im done with it. occasionally i would have some triggers, but overall i was over it. mostly because when i stopped cutting i got and eating disorder, and it's taken even stronger hold of me than cutting did. but with si i was doing so well. lately though my life is just falling apart. i have no idea what to do. i just feel like im drowning. i have no one to talk to. everyone expects me to be miss cheery and that i don't have any problems. i have no idea why but tonight i was just triggered beyond all reason, so depressed. in order to keep from slashing my wrists i took a safety pin and scratched my thigh and shoulder. now it burns. dang, how did i end up back here? i started out scratching myself and it turned into cutting. when i stopped part of me didn't want ot give it up, and i don't think i ever really got over it. i don't know what to do. with anything in my life. i just.....i don't know. some love? support? sympathy? anything, really. i just need people right now.
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