I am terrified of asking for help. what will they think of me? I don't cut that often anymore simply because it has become extreamly difficult to conceal, but that just means that when i can, i do it exesivly(sp?) and i think about it atleast 3 times a day. often i find myself subconsiously scratching my arms or digging my finger nails in, trying to break skin, so that i can say it's an accident and i scratched myself (as a razor leaves very obvious razor marks.) I even got to the point where i purposly cut my finger nails sharp. I want it to stop, it is taking control of my life. should i hang out with friends today? nope, can't, my cuts haven't healed and they are going swimming. Anyways, the point is, is that i am really too scared to tell anyone, and I have a weird fear of shrinks. I can't seem to find any annonamous sites where i can actually have someone to talk to. I feel as though im drowing.
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