Today I took a big risk in terms of eliminating my risk of self injury behaviors, but I am scared shitless! I had to clean my apartment tonight because I have so many people coming over tommorow. I got in a mood were I wanted to throw everything away. I am so sick of being surrounded by all the clutter. So in the missed of the clutter, guess what else I threw out... 3,000 + stock pilled pills and all my razors. (what i use to cut with.) Yikes. Like I said. I am scared shitless. I am scared that I will be more down the road. I dont want to be tempted anymore... Dannielle wants it erased from memory... Now Dannielle needs to work on the courage to throw out laxies and diet pills. It would be to much of a culture shock for me to do it today, and plus I think I am addicted.... Sad...
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