Self-Injury Support Group

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I don't know what to do... I was talking to a friend

scared.. she was talking about my boyfriend on who died 2002... one who has driving me 1/2 insane with guilt over his death .... his disease was more advanced than I thougth.... his disease had advanced to the cancerous stage... he never told me...

his friend told me today... I never knew before todya... I have felt guilty for 5-1/2 years.. how do I stop... how do I make the bad feelings go away
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take some deep breaths and lets talk it out - talking about it, drawing about it, singing about it, all of that stuff helps - so if you want to lets just talk it out right here - I'll be here with you
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trying to talk.. scared.. want to be wtih him.. but dont' want to die.. .confused
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Well, I think NOT killing yourself is a good option. I can feel how much you want to be with him, but you still have so much of your life to live! Do you want to talk about what happened?
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he died in 2002.. he had a disease..

I thought he didn't go to a doc until I asked... even though his mom had been asking for 6 months.

I found out today.. there was more to it... I don't know how to adapt.. how to feel.. how to express... he had cancerous tumours in the brain...
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I'm so sorry.... death is never easy to deal with, you are hurting so immensely right now that I know my words can't even comfort you. But I'm making a commitment to try my hardest! Why do you feel guilty for his death! Sweetheart, you didn't do anything! You are purely the victim as much as he is in this situation
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I guess I have been accepting responsibility for everything around me for so long.. for so much... I don;'t know anything else... it Idon';t know anything else.
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I can't even imagine how heavy and degrading your burden must be. It's not going to come off easy but you really need to let other people help you carry that! Are you in therapy? Therapy has helped in ways I didn't even imagine possible
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I tried... no call back.. my GP was helpful.. put me on prozac... upped me from 10mg to 20 last week...
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I'm glad the Prozac is working for you - You should ask them for some anxiety pills to lower your levels - I have some that I take before I go to bed and when I feel like cutting and the times I've slipped have been far and few between. Is there anything else you want to talk about and get off your chest or anything i can do? We can talk about things to take your mind of things or whatever you'd like!
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what else.. the arguements inside my head with myself... the ups ... the downs... the abuse I suffered... teh fear... the paranoia... I don't know where to start... where to end
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there's no right or wrong place to start - just start anywhere - you can rip into me just like you want to rip into the people who've wronged you! You have every right to be angry, sad, raging and hate filled!
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I have no business being angry with people who are my my betters.
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You can be angry with whoever you want - and no one is better than you - we're just all different than each other - you've been through so much! You are much stronger than you think -
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I can't be... he held people in the hospital that even nurses wouldn;t touch
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don't discount your feelings though.. don't shove them under the rug - just because someone does some good things doesn't mean they can't do some not so nice things either - you have to be able to let yourself feel what you really feel - that's how you process stuff
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