Hi angelrock. There is hope... honestly there is... and if it means going to hospital and getting help, then you need to embrace that and put all effort into becoming well. My advice to you if you don't want to go into hospital is asking your psychiatrist about Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). This has helped me a lot, and I haven't been hospitalized. It has taken me 3 years of therapy to get this far (5 1/2 weeks free)... but it takes that long to find out what works for you and what doesn't. Everyone is different, so have different ways of stopping. My suggestion to you is to do things that you like doing (provided that they are good things and not things that will harm you in anyway)... and keep doing them over and over as a distraction. Also what helps during times of real intensity is to squeeze your fists tight together as hard as you can and don't stop until you are exhausted. That is one thing my psychiatrist taught me and it has helped me somewhat for the past month and a bit. But I am being serious when I say... Do take the help that is offered you... don't screw your nose up at it or say its too hard. You can do this... look how far I've come (and I've been a cutter for 18 years)... You can get well. We all can... and we will all slip up every now and then, but each time will get further in between...

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