ok so i guess i dont know where to put this if i should put it in here or not but for those of you who looked at my profile already which i dont really remember what it says but you should know that every one thinks that i have a drinking problem ok well just so you know yes i was drinking right now but i dont know if i have a drinking problem or not i guess i dont really know why i an writing this but because i need someone to talk to cause see i had depression for a long long time and i cut my self and burn my self and i know i did everything else to hurt myself but then i stoped you know why cause my hubby cause he stopped me but now i just cant hold it in anynmore i did not really have a mom or a dad growing up and i just need someone to talk to cause i am starting to get all the feelings back about killing myself and hurting myself again and i dont know what to do i dont like talking to my hubby about this cause he just says shut up dont talk like that but like a day ago he made!!!!!!! me talk to him and i said you know what my problem is you know why i been so craby lately and then i said cause i want to kill my self and i am trying everything to not to do it but i dont know what to do anymore and for once he did not tell me to shut up and dont talk about it he tried to make me talk but tonight he i got in a fight now we got in to a fight just me i got mad at him cause he well that does not matter but i yelled and he did not he does not yell a lot of the time when we fight and that makes me more mad so i yell more i just need someone to talk to if anyone is on please talk to me i dont know what i am going to do we didnt fight but i got mad and all my feelings about hurting my self and killing myself are coming back please help me? drinking is the only thing i have left and i didnt tell anyone this but he said if i dont get my drinking under control that was is it and i know he said that jsut cause he knows it will scare me and want to stop but please i need help please talk to me just os everyone knows i am copy and past this to alcoholism too cause i dont know who can help me right now? and so i am aboviouse ly not an alcoholic if i still know how to copy paste when i been drinking