I am too old to be doing this (I am in my early thirties), but I am in the process of a significant relapse. I am not cutting myself nightly, but it is at least weekly again. I feel somewhat ridiculous, because I have a three year old daughter now, and it seems like I should have grown out of this years ago. I have been doing this off and on for I guess around 20 years or so. Is there anyone else who has a similar experience? The strange thing is that lately, I feel more depressed than I can remember, probably since high school. In recent years I cut myself infrequently because of a particular incident or event, but it wasn't frequent or systematic. Lately, I have completely lost hope, and sometimes the only thing I have to look forward to is that I promise myself if I drag myself out of bed and go to work, I will allow myself to go into the bathroom and cut myself with a pair of scissors. I just joined this website tonight, and would greatly appreciate hearing from anyone with a similar experience. Thank you.
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