okay... so this is my eighth day sober... completely dry-bone sober except for a little pot... no drinking, no coke, no pills to get me fucked up. its kinda nice, but its weird. its always one vice for another... first it was pot and speed, (15-16 yrs old) then i quit the speed and didn't smoke pot so much, (16-17) then i quit smoking cigarettes and turned into a total stoner for a couple years, (17-18) then i started smoking cigarettes again and started doing coke, which was too expensive to afford a pot habit, started drinking and went for the zanax (xanax??) bars to help coming down off the coke, popped painkillers here and there, slowed down on the coke (from all day and night, every day and night to friday and saturday nights, maybe once during the week), became an alcoholic, now i'm smoking pot here and there but since i'm not drinking,(19-20 yrs old) i need to take sleeping pills to get to bed at a decent hour. all along there was cutting on and off throughout there, slowed down a lot when i stopped doing speed, picked up the past couple months but now that i stopped drinking, its every night to help me sleep... not just one or two cuts, either, like it used to be... is anyone else like this??
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