There is no reason at all that I should feel the way i do. No major family issues, don't get bullied (anymore) i have 5 decent friends, tho im terrified of trusting anyone because im scared of being let down which does distance me from most people a lot. But compared 2 all u awesome people, i dont have it bad at all. I just think that theres somethin i have against myself and i don't know what, and i feel i deserve to feel so down and empty, like im punishing myself by cutting for something i don't quite know. I feel like im inconveniencing everyone around me and think strongly that if i werent here people's lives would be better and easier. So why do i hold onto life when i look forward to nothing, and sleepwalk my way through my completely pointless life? It's all my fault I feel the way i do, its my fault coz i make myself feel worse, and its all my fault that people worry about me. so why can't i end it all?
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