I feel the same way...I want to quit cutting so bad because I don't want to hurt my friends anymore (they are really upset I cut) & I wanna stop for myself but then I don't think I would be able to cope if I didn't cut...I am sorry I can't help you! Hang in there tho!

yer well, im not afraid ofstoping and being normal, ide kill for normal, but i cant really imagine it.

yh i do i want to stop cuz im hurting thos i love but i am scared that i wont be able to cope without it
im scared also i wont be able to find aything else that makes me feel the same way cutting does my message is a drag so sorry bout that

i want to stop i just dont know how. i hate that i cut. I dont want my little brother and sister (who idolize me) to grow up this way. but at the same time its like a drug. i get releif from the pain and so i keep doing it. you are not alone in the way you feel.

I want to stop so much, not just for myself, but because I see how much it hurts my friends.
It's not so much that I'm afraid of being normal, more that I can't see my life without cutting, because I've not found another way of coping that has the same effect

I am fairly new to cutting, but I have been leaving hitting & bruising myself for close to 25 years. I can't imagine things being different... I wish I could. There are times I so would like to be like my friends who have just the usual problems & not have to worry am I going to hurt myself today. Then you read about those people who kill, maim, injure, torture, torment others and I think, at least I'm not doing this to someone else.

I hinted at what I did to one friend... when he said I hope the cuts are from a bad shave, I couldn't say no... tho desperately I wanted to. Tho I did end up telling my brother. He just rolled his eyes and said "what would you do that?" in disgust. When I said, I found comfort - I got another eye roll. I know I could never tell my parents...I'd get the lecture of what they went through to have me, what they suffered, & on & on ... as if I was such a burden to them.

I completely understand... There's a part of me that wants SOOOO bad to be normal, but I'm almost afraid of what people would think of me, other than being the "depressed cutter"... It feels like that is all I am to most people... On the other hand, I really want to not have to feel this way all the time...