i dropped out of college yesterday, because im too far behind, and they dont seem to want to help me, which sucks

i cut really deep last night, it still bleed from time to time now

oh well

maybe i'll be lucky and bled to death

hopefully

i dont even know why im so depressed, i should be happy, because its less pressure, and less work, but im not

im not even depressed

im not anything

i feel numb, with the emotional pain of being a failure

i dont know what to do, whether to give in or carry on
or give up and stop fighting these emotions bottled up inside my tiny head
im not allowed to drink
or get high
or cut deep
so im stuck