So i'm a twenty year old uni student 300 miles from home with no friends, i'vebeen cutting scince chrismas and trying to give ups cince the first time.I am not close to my family, i don't tell them anything about my life and they don;t ask. I am stranded in my uni town over sumer, no job no money running out of food and getting ready to give up. I don't think i have passed this year, i've missed so much from being to depressed to go to lectures. The thing is if i fail i have no where to go, stuck in a different country with a different language it's impossible to find a job and if i go back to my parents they will continue to abuse me. the thing is i love my science, it became a mantra- no friends, no family but love for the science contiunes. I'm sure i'llfailand even if i don;'ti'm already a failure in every other aspect of my life. The hope dissappeared a long time ago and i'm living on nothing except misery and lonlyness.
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