I just tried to talk to my husband about our problems, I was nice and calm the whole time. He was majorly pissed, started hollering at me, he just wanted to screw. That's how he keeps an emotional hold on me. I went to the bathroom, trying to stay calm, but I'm freaking out. My heart is pounding out of my chest, my head is burning like it is on fire, I'm shaking and I'm going to puke. Now he came into the living room more pissed because I'm typing too loud, saying I threw away his earplugs saying hurtful things. I've got to cut. I've got to go past him to get to the bathroom, I'm terrified. I've got to get to my only safe place to cut. I don't care that I was clean for one day and didn't cut. I feel like I'm having a heart attack.